Ugly Duckling

How did you figure it all out?
You seem to know everything I don't
I think you have an inside source
Who speaks to you
But when I ask he won't

Sometimes I'm on the verge of screaming
My head off in a public place
But you look at me so strangely
Stop and stare and save it all
For a rainy day

I can't walk down the goddamn hall
I can't raise my fucking hand to speak
I can't eat my lunch in peace
I can't beat my head against the wall

I just can't I just can't ask
The questions piling up in heaps
I just can't I just can't get
Inside the ring with you
You play for keeps

Like I don't need one kind glance
Like I don't need just one word
Outside the books I huddle under
Trying to pretend I haven't heard

Did the devil take his toll
Could you really have a soul?

I can't walk down the goddamn hall
I can't raise my fucking hand to speak
I can't eat my lunch in peace
I can't beat my head against the wall

I want to know what you know
I want to have what you have
I want to hold my head high
I want to walk without fear